Saturday, February 08, 2003 :::
i just lost almost 3 years of icq history.
/me cries in a corner.
i've been meaning to do that for about a year now, though i never followed through with it. but now its done... rawr. =(
well its only been the last 3 years that i've been using my icq so much. i think... i'll go write some applications now.
Wednesday, February 05, 2003 :::
okay i'm fairly set on going to waterloo... boom. jason helped me answer one of the questions on the national scholly apps. yay! still tired. last day for the week tomorrow.. then winter activity day on friday! see lord of the rings... again. hah GG smc.
Monday, February 03, 2003 :::
so my weekends are uneventfull and i thought i'd start up another post to complain and whine. though i really dont feel like whining or complaining. not that there isn't stuff to whine and complain about, i just dont feel like whining and complaining about these people. and i really dont have ppl to whine and complain too, its odd. gosh i really wish i could redo highschool. there's just so much i would have done different. but then these kinds of things are always ... well would have changed so much. but its odd how these regrets works, i mean i'm content with things right now. and its not like had things gone differently i would be happier. there really is no reason for regrets. but what irks me the most is that there is not one person who can advise me on things, all things that is. sure i pick up little things here and there, but it would be much easier to have certain decisions made for me so that i would have someone to blame. yea so right now i'm still totally filled with lethargy and apathy. why? i dunno. that's just how apathy works. i guess its really because i have nothing to look forward to. i mean, no one to look forward to. at least i'll get to play foos on friday... but that doesn't even excite me. i mean all my life its always sorta been, looking forward to something. there was always something there. and as of late these things have been rather disappointing. not so much that they were unexpected but you know. i wonder if waterloo with like it if for my applications i talk about the "overextenuating circumstance of being a teenager". now if i were ridiculously rich, i'd have an m3 for the road and a rx-7 for the track. that's a hooby for me. i wish i could go riding again too. gosh this place is too cold. i would like to live in california where i could be on the coast. should have applied to stanford. edit:: i assume that you are all thoroughly confused had you cared to read the entire thing.
i went to new year's at market and pacific, and missed the fireworks. it was fun though. saw the new gitz place at metro, its like my living room, with a couch and 3 gitz tables, 11 balls for 50 cents. meh, missed shawn desman at the school dance, probably because i didn't go, which is a good enough reason in itself. saturday... can't remember much... from saturday. just went to commerce to play at lovegetty and have drinks at destiny. oh yea i worked out on friday and practiced my basketball for the big intramural game next week wednesday. lol. still waiting for mr smyth to send in my pif, and write me a letter. and i gotta fill in my scholly apps. someone tell me about the overextenuating circumstances i have had to overcome to succeed... i can think of some, but not really... suggestions please.
sunday went to pacific again, didn't buy anything. aaron wants a laptop, so do i, just one small one for writing and doing work, and a desktop for play and movies. then in the evening went down to family's place at lakeshore.
so i'm watching some more reality tv. wow, i cannot wait till the end of joemillionaire. i wanna see the girl he picks, damn is she gonna flip out. and that guy is so retarded.
still gotta write trinity application. so much crap, need more rest. mentorship tomorrow too... damn i actually got to do stuff last week. i feel so bad for the ppl in the other programs, mine's supposedly the best, and they all hate theirs. i feel like its a chore going to mine mostly because i get home when its dark, i do take my mentorship for granted. i really dont wanna fill out the shulich applications. i also got back my calc test. 39/40? state range for t... i say it was 0>t>2, supposed to be greater than or equal to 0... other ppl put t<2... we all lost a mark. i do more calc work now, which is good, trig stuff. i think i should have taken ap cuz then i might have a challenge and something to write down in my waterloo application.
need more water. going downstairs. btw happy new year.
